“I know about the lymphoma.”
The next evening, I returned home with the boys. The house felt hollow, as if haunted by old laughter. Joshua was at the kitchen table, his eyes red and a mug of untouched coffee in his hands.
He looked up. “Hanna…”
“You let me quit my job, Joshua,” I said. “You let me fall in love with those boys. You let me believe this was our dream.”
His face crumpled. “I wanted you to have a family.”
“No.” My voice shook. “You wanted to decide what happened to me after you were gone.”
He covered his face. “I told myself I was protecting you. But really, I was protecting myself from watching you choose whether to stay.”
“I wanted you to have a family.”
That one landed between us like broken glass.
“You made me a mother without telling me I might be raising them alone,” I said. “You don’t get to call that love and expect gratitude.”
He started crying again, but I didn’t soften. Not yet.
“I’m here because Matthew and William need their father,” I said. “And because, if there is time left, it will be lived in the truth.”
He started crying again.
***
The next morning, I paced the kitchen, phone in hand. “We have to tell our families,” I told my husband. “No more secrets.”
He nodded. “Will you stay?”
“I’ll fight for you,” I said. “But you have to fight too.”
***
Telling our families was worse than either of us expected. Joshua’s sister cried, then turned on him.
“You made her become a mother while planning your death?” she said. “What is wrong with you?”
My mother was quieter, which somehow hurt more. “You should have trusted your wife with her own life,” she told him.
Joshua sat there and took it. For once, he didn’t defend himself.
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